i can't remember the last time that we've talked on the phone.
and that explains why i didn't recognize your voice when you called last night......
you see, i'm used to it now......
i thought i wouldn't be able to move on......
but surprisingly i did it....
i'm moving on....
made some baby steps.....
and now i'm so used to not hearing from you,
not thinking of you, not calling you, not seeing you on tv.....
i'm so glad i'm out of that phase.....
then.......you called....
you even asked me if i'm okay....
you were breaking down....
crying your heart out....i can't understand what you were saying....
all i heard were your sobbings and the unbearable sounds of pain
you sure made me worried...
i felt bad really....
somehow i was wondering if you were crying because you missed me (silly thought, i know)
or your new guy did something stupid and you thought of me......
or something happened to someone in your family....
or worst you've hurt yourself....a lot of bad thoughts
all of a sudden.....i felt the need to check on you...
i felt the need to know if you are already okay.....
and what really happened....
why were you crying,.....
why all of a sudden.....you called me....you thought of me
but as it turned out......
i think you've misinterpreted everything....
now you thought that i am still so into you
and that i will then be calling you now on a regular or semi-regular basis....
please don't worry 'coz i wont do that....
i've moved on
so please don't think that just because i now have your "another mobile number"
i would go to the regular habit of texting you or calling you.......just like before
you don't have to tell me to stop calling you and that
"magkita muna tayo then you can call me everyday after that".....
please don't make it appear that i'm so "desperately wanting" to talk to you.......
because the truth is........ I'M NOT
i know i can never change my past....
you are a part of it...
.and i've learned a lot from what we had....
i want to thank you for the memories....
....everything that happened.....they happened because it was destined.....
and i don't feel any regret at all....
you are in my prayers....
i wish you happiness and more success in your career....
and i've accepted the fact that its over and that we have our own lives now....
i'm sure glad i got my life back...
and i'm happy because i know you are happy too
and that you are living your life to the fullest.....
"kung manliligaw ka ulit please not on the phone"
okay.....i heard you.....loud and clear
